For by thee I have run through a troop; and by my God have I leaped over a wall.
As we go through life we build up walls around ourselves for protection. Every time someone hurts me or lies on me or misuses and abuses me I cement another block of hardness into place. Eventually by the time we reach adulthood we are well fortified and protected.
Then as life continues to happen we reach the place were we put a reactive force out in front of our fortified feelings and heart called aggressive defensiveness and anger to protect the city of defensiveness we have built.
Inside this city lives all of our fears. Fear of failure, fear of criticism, fear of rejection and anything else we feel like would be looked down on and scorned if people could see it.
It is this city we live in that often is the cause of us not being able to progress in our relationship with the Lord and in our relationships with other human beings.
You can always tell when someone is getting close to breaching the defenses of your city and exposing your fears because the anxiety and then anger begin to rise up. We are so practiced at protecting our kingdom that it is almost an automatic thing that happens before we even consciously understand what is going on.
We do not have to live this way and God did not intend for us to live that way.
Revelations, the twenty first chapter, talks about the New City in eternity future and how its gates are always open and how the kings and priests go in and out of that city. That is a beautiful picture of the Lord’s heart and a picture of how our heart is supposed to be.
King David learned how to do this as he testified to in Psalm 18. “For by thee I have run through a troop; and by my God have I leaped over a wall.”
Yes, people are going to hurt us and yes, we will experience discomfort learning to be open, honest and loving but with God we can run through a troop and leap over the wall into our own heart and into the heart of the hurting people God sends across our path.